Under the bus shelter this morning

While I was waiting for the b54 I coughed and a man offered me a cough drop. It's a store brand cough drop that has been warmed up or it's old because it sticks to the wrapper. I open it and see that it has been broken into two pieces. I take the smaller and wrap up the other.

"Was is stuck? Do you want another?"

"No, thank you. It was broke in half so I am saving the other half for later"

"Economizing?"

"yes"

Then we chat about the Dutch hero who saved the passengers on Christmas Day. The bus pulled up and he wished me a Happy New Year.

There, now aren't you so happy I told you this saga?

2:30pm

That's when we used to meet each day, afternoon tea.
Punch card slowly fills, purchases begin to exhaust.
It might all be over soon.
The thought makes me sick,
Maybe tea will help.

I think the sinus infection is going away, I'm not coughing so much, I still feel the pressure. I'm sure the stress in my life doesn't help but I wouldn't want it to be easy.

It's not supposed to be easy.

Depressed Maria. I need to find some time to tea. I need afternoon tea. Thanks for reading.

Augmentin

That aught to help with the infection, on Thursday I get the results from the lab work on the culture samples taken today. I'm not good with sprays and shiat that makes me jittery, so I'll just keep on keeping on with the saline spray.


This little office is on Sutton Pl. and 55th Ave. way over by the water and the Doctor scolded me for not mentioning my ear issues. "You didn't write that you had tubes in your ears on your history"

That was ages ago dude.

Wow, what a boring post, sorry I had to make you suffer it. I wish I could tell you what's really going on. Too risky.

Doctor

Doctor! I called Dr. Lebowitz @ NYU today, just wonderin' if he might be working on a Sunday. He wasn't but an operator picked up and said I should just go into the ER. "For a sinus infection?" I asked and she said yes.

Not bloody likely Ms. I'll suffer one more day of this and go tomorrow during my lunch break, I'm afraid the infection is spreading and all the stress of life is making it worse, oh modern medicine help me out.

This Time Tomorrow - The Kinks of course... That ought to be on any decent bar's jukebox.

It's been bad

epsom salt baths and steam helps. I am optimistic, changes are sometimes hard and difficult. Blast! Summer in Siam.

I can manage, I've always worked well under pressure. I am going to be 28 soon, I recognize that little lines under my eyes mean something real.

My loves and my imagination occupy my time, my sinus can take shot-gun for all I care.

Got to get it together

see what's happening. No but seriously, 2010 is gonna be something else, watch. You. Sinus pressure will be put in check and I might work out a lot more (or sometimes).

Well

I'm double-jointed in both shoulders and last night my arm fell out of it's socket and this morning it is sore. I have had a persistent cough for the past few weeks and I'd better see a Dr. about that.

Also, last night I had a fabulous french-dip.
www.walterfoods.com

Waiting for the snow.

thoreau

"the true place for a just man is also a prison"

And when I waited at
our corner. And you were late
I doubted. I had sinus pressure, I thought
I might be sick.
Maybe a sinus infection is spreading, to my
ears, my head and my lips. The holidays are here.
All I want is for the pressure to leave, for Union Square
to not be a hurdle. I want to laugh and sing. And
mother of pearl! the wind stings.

Rain 100%

All day rain. All day. Helps my sinus pressure, when I am out. But I haven't been out too much. I went into the city, tried to pick up some holiday cheer. Not so much.

Punch Card

(dear reader, I'm sorry for all the bullshit poetry I will get back to the sinus pressure topics soon)


Punch Card


It's over. Another "our" time has ended.
Episode 5 wherein she bleeds and blasts the tea
to the album cover's awards.
Finally there is a new feeling of security
in knowing that whatever
may happen, there will be 10
and the 11th is is free.

Change

I had very very bad sinus pressure this morning but then it went away.


Gloves

I lost my gloves on the way to
sickness
I need them but it was worth it.
The most glorious feeling and you! you!
holding onto me as I was
there
And we talk quietly and laugh about
your grandmother's fruit and the cold.

I don't know

...What would you say if you were in love? Shall I scream? No. I'd better watch more film.

Rain

It has been a cold wet day, I think that may be why my sinuses haven't been bothering me so much. This morning at the farmers market, I bought some porcini mushrooms. I want sleep now.

Right Now

http://www.mtholyoke.edu/~zkurmus/html/didion.html

I'm not sure what I will want in ten years. I'm going to be 28 soon and I think what I really know for sure right now is that I don't want to leave NYC for a while. Or ever. No pressure in that decision at all.

Bright lights

The bright lights make my sinus pressure worse. And sometimes I confuse the pressure with anxiety. I like to hold cool things on the bridge of my nose, I'd like to have a slab of marble with me at all times for this purpose.

I've been told

I scowl a lot. This may or may not be a result of sinus pressure.

right eye

My right eye has been twitching for a few weeks. I figure it's the sleep deprivation and stress but what bothers me is the twitching. I want to get into the holidays. I do like the way pine smells. I like the way nutmeg smells too.