Wednesday, July 8, 2009

violet

this isn't about sinus pressure but there is a lady who I spent time with tonight, she is 92, she lives down the street with her two HUGE cats. I was walking down the street tonight and we began to talk, she invited me into her house and I spent an hour with her. She is amazing, she is lonely and she is strong. She misses company and I appreciate my youth and my family and my friends so much. I looked at pictures of her and her sisters, her late husband, her art...I think she is so special and I hope we can become friends. Sometimes, I spend so much time thinking about the future, what I will do with my living room, what I will do with company, what I will do with my education. The most precious things of all, I swear, are the fucking small things, those moments with the ones we love.

Monday, July 6, 2009

rain

all the while I have been upset with the rain in June, it might have been helping keep my sinuses moist. I know a few people who hate the word "moist" it doesn't bother me too much.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

headache

I get sinus related headaches so often that when I have a bona fide headache I think it's an aneurysm. I can feel the veins on the outside of my skull and I usually massage my head until the blood stops flowing to my head. If I were bald I'd have a vein-y head. I've abstained from "adult drinks" this past week and I have been drinking a lot of water. I need to find time to get my heart rate going. Do you ever call in or enter sweepstakes? I do.