appearance

my nose is slightly crooked. when I was born my mom said it was really bad, apparently I was face down in the womb? It straightened up and now it's hardly noticeable but it's definitely crooked. I have a deviated septum which, (according to this specialist Dr. I saw a few months ago) might contribute to my sinus issues. My nails are stupid, they grow really square and chip a lot, when i paint them I chip them the next day. I would feel guilty going to a salon all the time to get my nails manicured. I think when I get older I'm just gonna say "fu*k it" and just do what I want without feeling guilty.

saturday

I woke up with serious sinus pressure this morning. I put an ice cube on the bridge of my nose, sneezed a few times and then started to feel better. The sun is out today and I would lay out but the ground is still wet. I'll just pull two chairs together I suppose. I've been thinking about the little wrinkles under my eyes lately. And I read The Sun Also Rises again, I think I have been reading that novel 5-6 times per year for the past 5 years.

sleep

getting a good night(s?) sleep means a lot and my sinus cavity likes it. the young boy doesn't wake up in the middle of the night (after nearly two years of doing so) and I think that helps. sometimes I get up before Beau and I grab the stinker and he lays in bed with us. he points out the sounds of what vehicles might be going by "mo rocco" (motorcycle) or "big big fruck" (that's a big big truck).

Smell

The smell that comes off the L train to Brooklyn from Manhattan brings me back to the annex at the church I went to as a child. Whenever that train comes into the station I inhale and try to remember songs and faces. This morning a cube mate at work thought a bologna sandwhich would make a fine breakfast. That's kind of gross to me. So, in order to get the scent out of my nasal passage I am sniffing a permanent marker.

these days

have been good.

Today

The pressure in my sinus is not bad at all, I wish I knew why. I'll try to enjoy the day sans sinus pressure. For now.

This is not me. I do not know if this can help my pressure.