age

I am getting older. I am exfoliating more. My sinus pressure hasn't been bothering me too much. I am trying to improve upon my posture, parenting, stress, health and love. Love!

violet

this isn't about sinus pressure but there is a lady who I spent time with tonight, she is 92, she lives down the street with her two HUGE cats. I was walking down the street tonight and we began to talk, she invited me into her house and I spent an hour with her. She is amazing, she is lonely and she is strong. She misses company and I appreciate my youth and my family and my friends so much. I looked at pictures of her and her sisters, her late husband, her art...I think she is so special and I hope we can become friends. Sometimes, I spend so much time thinking about the future, what I will do with my living room, what I will do with company, what I will do with my education. The most precious things of all, I swear, are the fucking small things, those moments with the ones we love.

rain

all the while I have been upset with the rain in June, it might have been helping keep my sinuses moist. I know a few people who hate the word "moist" it doesn't bother me too much.

headache

I get sinus related headaches so often that when I have a bona fide headache I think it's an aneurysm. I can feel the veins on the outside of my skull and I usually massage my head until the blood stops flowing to my head. If I were bald I'd have a vein-y head. I've abstained from "adult drinks" this past week and I have been drinking a lot of water. I need to find time to get my heart rate going. Do you ever call in or enter sweepstakes? I do.

appearance

my nose is slightly crooked. when I was born my mom said it was really bad, apparently I was face down in the womb? It straightened up and now it's hardly noticeable but it's definitely crooked. I have a deviated septum which, (according to this specialist Dr. I saw a few months ago) might contribute to my sinus issues. My nails are stupid, they grow really square and chip a lot, when i paint them I chip them the next day. I would feel guilty going to a salon all the time to get my nails manicured. I think when I get older I'm just gonna say "fu*k it" and just do what I want without feeling guilty.

saturday

I woke up with serious sinus pressure this morning. I put an ice cube on the bridge of my nose, sneezed a few times and then started to feel better. The sun is out today and I would lay out but the ground is still wet. I'll just pull two chairs together I suppose. I've been thinking about the little wrinkles under my eyes lately. And I read The Sun Also Rises again, I think I have been reading that novel 5-6 times per year for the past 5 years.

sleep

getting a good night(s?) sleep means a lot and my sinus cavity likes it. the young boy doesn't wake up in the middle of the night (after nearly two years of doing so) and I think that helps. sometimes I get up before Beau and I grab the stinker and he lays in bed with us. he points out the sounds of what vehicles might be going by "mo rocco" (motorcycle) or "big big fruck" (that's a big big truck).