Sinus pressure

Sardines

2011-11-27T11:05:00.001-08:00

I eat the spine. And why the hell not? It's a Sunday afternoon and I am having a snack.

Asa nisi masa

2011-09-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

What I should be doing vs. what I am doing.

Writing a case study on a non-profit organization based out of Brooklyn New York that assists people displaced by gentrification, imprisonment, grew up in foster-care etc. I need to be writing a practical paper, proving that I know what membership can do.

I am watching Fellini's 8 1/2 it's my go-to procrastination film. I want to drink mineral water, I have heartburn. I don't have sinus pressure today but I predict that I will tomorrow.

A slice of my insides

2011-08-20T11:57:00.001-07:00

So I thought today I would take a break from my usual cryptic bull and be straight forward with something that really makes me happy.

I take a can of these mothers and they usually last about a week. I would say that I purchase one can every two months or so. You dont want to over do it, you know, then it's not so special.

I will walk to the fridge and using a fork extract a pepper and then place it on a corn tortilla, top it with cottage cheese and salt, roll the taquito and nom nom nom.

It's like a happy tequila shot, but more invigorating and it lasts longer.

thanks for taking the time to read.

frown

2011-07-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

You might have noticed that some people with chronic sinus pressure tend to scowl a lot.

The pain tends to be localized around the eyes; it's not about you. I'm not frowning at you or your shenanigans, as the young kids say.

I think I'd like to be thought of as a mordacious babe.

bleach and heat

2011-06-28T18:49:00.000-07:00

My hands smell like bleach and pine-sol. I have finished folding my boy's clothes and am sneaking into his room, late at night, after he has fallen asleep. My mother did this too, I remember the inconvenience of having my sleep interrupted, the harsh smell of the chemicals and the warm comfort in knowing that her care for me was tireless. Did she talk to herself like I do? Constant, an engine asking the same mundane questions "does this shirt still fit my child? what will I do after daycare tomorrow? Does he get enough vegetables?". I violently mop the floors, I see the stains and scrub with a determined anger, I don't know why I am upset, I am probably not; just unused energy.

Mucus

2011-06-02T18:58:00.000-07:00

I'm sure that in every person's life there comes a time that they have to decide whether or not if they are going to snort up their snot or blow their nose.

How far are those boogers?

High? Low?

Who will hear? Then what? Swallow? Spit?

I know this is all gross.

I'll tell you one fu*king thing, I am not going to tag this post #firstworldproblems - that is so annoying.

Not as annoying as snorting snot though, though I will if need be.

Here

2011-03-25T19:56:00.001-07:00

so I says to the doctor I says "I have never had seasonal allergies" and the doc says "where did you grow up?" and I tell him, "Arizona" ... "well, there is your answer, there aren't any seasons there". Well hell. I miss the desert, I miss having a tan, a glow. I miss family. But spring is here, and I swear to god my son asked me to stop and smell the flowers today, no, not roses, this is Brooklyn, there are flowers here. I stopped.

Fungus

2011-02-23T16:32:00.000-08:00

Say what you will about stress or dry air or the slow but quick process of learning from mistakes but I don't get sinus pressure too much these days. These days. What is that old song? Anyways.

I know better and I have been feeling better, but when the sinus pressure strikes I run for the bath and the strong family.

I used to hate mushrooms and clams. As I age I can appreciate those that do too; it is good. The things that grow in the dark, dank and rotten areas of the world can be good.

drum brush sound

2010-12-05T18:46:00.000-08:00

it can get nasal sounding. but when the brushes are wire like, it's good.

So, listening to the drum brushes beat along with the Christmas sounds; no immediate pressure.

Take something!

2010-11-18T10:13:00.000-08:00

Blinding pressure, well not blind but I can't focus on anything.
-I can't mention the rye-
don't want readers to think I drink too much.
"get some goddamn aspirin
NOW"

Friends, it doesn't help when you yell.

epsom salt

2010-11-13T09:41:00.000-08:00

Have I mentioned my obsession? I bathe in salt baths only on the weekends but I am going to try to work it up to three times a week.

This IS my exercise.

Now if you'll excuse me.

No pressure.

similar dreams

2010-09-08T09:16:00.000-07:00

I felt The Empire State building falling and I was waiting for the impact.
Despite the few smokes and the conversation last night that went too late on the patio; sinus pressure is or has been at bay.
So I won't try to complain.
When I strolled into the lobby there was an announcement that there would be drills today.

treatments

2010-07-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

The pressure is really high and inside; I can feel it near my nasolacrimal ducts.
I've lost my neti pot.
I've lost my marbles.

Thursday Morning Very Little Pressure

2010-07-01T05:50:00.000-07:00

the black cat keeps stealing the foosball ball
there is a break in the heat wave and I am sleeping better.
The moral animal is growing and putting pees and poos in the potty.
I love my son.

There is a link between

2010-06-20T06:37:00.000-07:00

Humidity and sinus problems. Beer and my belly. Stinky cheese and sweet wine. Coney Island and hot dogs. Let's get the rhythm of the hot dog. Double dutch.
Today is going to be humid.

I feel great

2010-05-08T09:54:00.000-07:00

I have sinus pressure pretty bad today. I put an ice cube on the bridge of my nose, sneezed a few times, I took a hot shower, I took a few aspirn. I'm good.

I'm writing a little piece on crossover music in the 1970s.
I'm not writing that I am writing this.

Fucking distractions.

Later guys.

spring

2010-04-10T08:26:00.001-07:00

I show my anger towards the mariachi player, mood-swings and hyper-sensitivity to smells.
I deep clean the bathroom with Clorox bleach and drink a diet pepsi, on special occasions only.
I think about the hottest days in phoenix and being burned by the seat belt. I listen to Bob Weir and
I dream about the 1990s.

february

2010-02-28T07:57:00.000-08:00

February. That doesn't roll off my tongue. So, what have I been up to? baths galore. up and down with love and ready for spring. I saw a cardinal this morning. hooray for eucalyptus bath salts, good for sinus pressure.

Salinger and Zinn died

2010-01-28T18:33:00.000-08:00

Keeping the sinus pressure in check, all the other wrecks insist on getting in my way. God bless it.

Something that feels good

2010-01-23T05:57:00.000-08:00

Is when a finger traces lines on your face. Or when a person checks your expression after saying something funny. Being challenged to have courage feels good, if I'm in the mood.

On one side

2010-01-21T16:31:00.000-08:00

my sinus pressure generally stays on one side of my nose, the pressure is very very intense and lately I feel the pain all the way to my teeth. I know the climate is dry and that this contributes, I need a humidifier among other things.

I am thinking a lot about loyalty these days.

Sick

2010-01-16T07:29:00.000-08:00

I got home from work last night, after one of the longest work weeks I can remember and immediately felt feverish and flu-like. All day I had intense sinus pressure, I knew something was up. In the cab I felt drunk, as soon as I stepped into the house the symptoms hit like a ton of bricks.

So I slept and rested. I'm not back to normal.

I love baths so much.

6:16

2010-01-07T15:15:00.000-08:00

That's what time it is.
6:17 now, I'm roasting a chicken, I better go check on that.

Vegetables too.

2010-01-02T11:59:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mhwufCg7THM

Well, let me tell you. No sinus pressure, no headache, so far so good.
changing moods, lighting, shifting gears from funny to serious
If I ever feel better remind me to spend some time with you.

Back to work tomorrow morn. It's cold, I have a lot to do. I have a lot to do in January.
More love.

Under the bus shelter this morning

2009-12-31T06:43:00.000-08:00

While I was waiting for the b54 I coughed and a man offered me a cough drop. It's a store brand cough drop that has been warmed up or it's old because it sticks to the wrapper. I open it and see that it has been broken into two pieces. I take the smaller and wrap up the other.

"Was is stuck? Do you want another?"

"No, thank you. It was broke in half so I am saving the other half for later"

"Economizing?"

"yes"

Then we chat about the Dutch hero who saved the passengers on Christmas Day. The bus pulled up and he wished me a Happy New Year.

There, now aren't you so happy I told you this saga?

2:30pm

2009-12-30T17:18:00.000-08:00

That's when we used to meet each day, afternoon tea.
Punch card slowly fills, purchases begin to exhaust.
It might all be over soon.
The thought makes me sick,
Maybe tea will help.

2009-12-29T17:39:00.000-08:00

I think the sinus infection is going away, I'm not coughing so much, I still feel the pressure. I'm sure the stress in my life doesn't help but I wouldn't want it to be easy.

It's not supposed to be easy.

Depressed Maria. I need to find some time to tea. I need afternoon tea. Thanks for reading.

Augmentin

2009-12-28T10:47:00.000-08:00

That aught to help with the infection, on Thursday I get the results from the lab work on the culture samples taken today. I'm not good with sprays and shiat that makes me jittery, so I'll just keep on keeping on with the saline spray.

This little office is on Sutton Pl. and 55th Ave. way over by the water and the Doctor scolded me for not mentioning my ear issues. "You didn't write that you had tubes in your ears on your history"

That was ages ago dude.

Wow, what a boring post, sorry I had to make you suffer it. I wish I could tell you what's really going on. Too risky.

Doctor

2009-12-27T10:05:00.000-08:00

Doctor! I called Dr. Lebowitz @ NYU today, just wonderin' if he might be working on a Sunday. He wasn't but an operator picked up and said I should just go into the ER. "For a sinus infection?" I asked and she said yes.

Not bloody likely Ms. I'll suffer one more day of this and go tomorrow during my lunch break, I'm afraid the infection is spreading and all the stress of life is making it worse, oh modern medicine help me out.

This Time Tomorrow - The Kinks of course... That ought to be on any decent bar's jukebox.

It's been bad

2009-12-26T18:47:00.000-08:00

epsom salt baths and steam helps. I am optimistic, changes are sometimes hard and difficult. Blast! Summer in Siam.

I can manage, I've always worked well under pressure. I am going to be 28 soon, I recognize that little lines under my eyes mean something real.

My loves and my imagination occupy my time, my sinus can take shot-gun for all I care.

Got to get it together

2009-12-22T17:11:00.000-08:00

see what's happening. No but seriously, 2010 is gonna be something else, watch. You. Sinus pressure will be put in check and I might work out a lot more (or sometimes).

Well

2009-12-19T07:27:00.000-08:00

I'm double-jointed in both shoulders and last night my arm fell out of it's socket and this morning it is sore. I have had a persistent cough for the past few weeks and I'd better see a Dr. about that.

Also, last night I had a fabulous french-dip.
www.walterfoods.com

Waiting for the snow.

thoreau

2009-12-16T18:58:00.000-08:00

"the true place for a just man is also a prison"

And when I waited at
our corner. And you were late
I doubted. I had sinus pressure, I thought
I might be sick.
Maybe a sinus infection is spreading, to my
ears, my head and my lips. The holidays are here.
All I want is for the pressure to leave, for Union Square
to not be a hurdle. I want to laugh and sing. And
mother of pearl! the wind stings.

Rain 100%

2009-12-13T15:12:00.001-08:00

All day rain. All day. Helps my sinus pressure, when I am out. But I haven't been out too much. I went into the city, tried to pick up some holiday cheer. Not so much.

Punch Card

2009-12-11T19:14:00.000-08:00

(dear reader, I'm sorry for all the bullshit poetry I will get back to the sinus pressure topics soon)

Punch Card

It's over. Another "our" time has ended.
Episode 5 wherein she bleeds and blasts the tea
to the album cover's awards.
Finally there is a new feeling of security
in knowing that whatever
may happen, there will be 10
and the 11th is is free.

Change

2009-12-10T15:45:00.000-08:00

I had very very bad sinus pressure this morning but then it went away.

Gloves

I lost my gloves on the way to
sickness
I need them but it was worth it.
The most glorious feeling and you! you!
holding onto me as I was
there
And we talk quietly and laugh about
your grandmother's fruit and the cold.

I don't know

2009-12-09T20:35:00.000-08:00

...What would you say if you were in love? Shall I scream? No. I'd better watch more film.

Rain

2009-12-05T19:28:00.000-08:00

It has been a cold wet day, I think that may be why my sinuses haven't been bothering me so much. This morning at the farmers market, I bought some porcini mushrooms. I want sleep now.

Right Now

2009-12-04T06:40:00.000-08:00

http://www.mtholyoke.edu/~zkurmus/html/didion.html

I'm not sure what I will want in ten years. I'm going to be 28 soon and I think what I really know for sure right now is that I don't want to leave NYC for a while. Or ever. No pressure in that decision at all.

Bright lights

2009-12-03T07:17:00.000-08:00

The bright lights make my sinus pressure worse. And sometimes I confuse the pressure with anxiety. I like to hold cool things on the bridge of my nose, I'd like to have a slab of marble with me at all times for this purpose.

I've been told

2009-12-02T10:50:00.000-08:00

I scowl a lot. This may or may not be a result of sinus pressure.

right eye

2009-12-01T11:28:00.000-08:00

My right eye has been twitching for a few weeks. I figure it's the sleep deprivation and stress but what bothers me is the twitching. I want to get into the holidays. I do like the way pine smells. I like the way nutmeg smells too.

Control

2009-11-30T08:48:00.000-08:00

What it is about? That is what is pressuring me today. That and pillows and tea.

anticipation

2009-11-29T06:49:00.000-08:00

It feels good to have your eyebrows nibbled. It feels good to have your temples kissed. Anxiety hurts. Despite the cigarette I had last night (shh), I have no sinus pressure this morning.

pressure

2009-11-28T05:25:00.000-08:00

There's nothing more exhausting than a late night fight, amirite?

Autumn is no less on me, that a rose
Hugs the brown bough and sighs before it goes.

-Edna St. Vincent Millay

age

2009-11-27T07:20:00.000-08:00

I am getting older. I am exfoliating more. My sinus pressure hasn't been bothering me too much. I am trying to improve upon my posture, parenting, stress, health and love. Love!

violet

2009-07-08T18:58:00.001-07:00

this isn't about sinus pressure but there is a lady who I spent time with tonight, she is 92, she lives down the street with her two HUGE cats. I was walking down the street tonight and we began to talk, she invited me into her house and I spent an hour with her. She is amazing, she is lonely and she is strong. She misses company and I appreciate my youth and my family and my friends so much. I looked at pictures of her and her sisters, her late husband, her art...I think she is so special and I hope we can become friends. Sometimes, I spend so much time thinking about the future, what I will do with my living room, what I will do with company, what I will do with my education. The most precious things of all, I swear, are the fucking small things, those moments with the ones we love.

rain

2009-07-06T12:18:00.000-07:00

all the while I have been upset with the rain in June, it might have been helping keep my sinuses moist. I know a few people who hate the word "moist" it doesn't bother me too much.

headache

2009-07-02T07:40:00.000-07:00

I get sinus related headaches so often that when I have a bona fide headache I think it's an aneurysm. I can feel the veins on the outside of my skull and I usually massage my head until the blood stops flowing to my head. If I were bald I'd have a vein-y head. I've abstained from "adult drinks" this past week and I have been drinking a lot of water. I need to find time to get my heart rate going. Do you ever call in or enter sweepstakes? I do.

appearance

2009-06-08T10:25:00.000-07:00

my nose is slightly crooked. when I was born my mom said it was really bad, apparently I was face down in the womb? It straightened up and now it's hardly noticeable but it's definitely crooked. I have a deviated septum which, (according to this specialist Dr. I saw a few months ago) might contribute to my sinus issues. My nails are stupid, they grow really square and chip a lot, when i paint them I chip them the next day. I would feel guilty going to a salon all the time to get my nails manicured. I think when I get older I'm just gonna say "fu*k it" and just do what I want without feeling guilty.

saturday

2009-06-06T09:27:00.000-07:00

I woke up with serious sinus pressure this morning. I put an ice cube on the bridge of my nose, sneezed a few times and then started to feel better. The sun is out today and I would lay out but the ground is still wet. I'll just pull two chairs together I suppose. I've been thinking about the little wrinkles under my eyes lately. And I read The Sun Also Rises again, I think I have been reading that novel 5-6 times per year for the past 5 years.

sleep

2009-05-07T09:51:00.000-07:00

getting a good night(s?) sleep means a lot and my sinus cavity likes it. the young boy doesn't wake up in the middle of the night (after nearly two years of doing so) and I think that helps. sometimes I get up before Beau and I grab the stinker and he lays in bed with us. he points out the sounds of what vehicles might be going by "mo rocco" (motorcycle) or "big big fruck" (that's a big big truck).

Smell

2008-08-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

The smell that comes off the L train to Brooklyn from Manhattan brings me back to the annex at the church I went to as a child. Whenever that train comes into the station I inhale and try to remember songs and faces. This morning a cube mate at work thought a bologna sandwhich would make a fine breakfast. That's kind of gross to me. So, in order to get the scent out of my nasal passage I am sniffing a permanent marker.

these days

2008-08-05T06:37:00.000-07:00

have been good.

Today

2008-07-28T08:58:00.000-07:00

The pressure in my sinus is not bad at all, I wish I knew why. I'll try to enjoy the day sans sinus pressure. For now.

This is not me. I do not know if this can help my pressure.

2008-07-21T07:42:00.001-07:00

Eucalyptus

2008-07-14T06:29:00.000-07:00

Helps with my sinus pressure.